Happy & Sad day

HAPPY:

It is a happy day because I made more friends hehe super glad. Today's event was awesome!!! Ate har gow, siew mai, ECLAIRS!!! It did end off with a good note and we dabao to SU room, very auntie but who cares most importantly is that my seniors and friends are happy.

SAD: 

To continue, I slowly realize I hate it when my senior, that likes my friend, keep praising her. It is stupid cos she has a boyfriend and he just keeps trying to fish her. I thought of why I never seemed to be praised " you are the pretty girl" I know i am not pretty and to make it worse i have a friend that is pretty and cute and all the good things. Everything just makes me look bad. I can only say it here because YES i want attention but all i want is that bit of attention. WHY AM I NEVER LOVED? SCREW ALL THIS SHIT!!! that is why i really need my own quiet space.

With my mood already bad, i bought a cake for my bro cos it is his birthday but i came home and realised that my dad already bought him a cake. My dad hardly buys cake for me, why? cos i am a daughter. it is always like that i am born in a family that cherishes their sons more than they cherish their daughter.

 I really thought very hard about how much my family and friends appreciate me. Am i just a passing phase to them? Will it matters if i just disappear? I don't think it ever bothers them. It is just like how my bestie leaves me and never will he return.

Monday Blues

Monday Blues

It always feels to me as if I am someone that all my friends can live with or without me. Ever since my bestie ended the friendship with me because it is affecting his relationship, i often felt if i were to disappear i would bring more smiles to the world. I don't know man, i doubt anyone will actually feel the kind of emotions that i have right now. To my nearest best friend now, i am just a freaking bright light bulb will anyone understand? It just doesn't make sense to me why am I never being loved the way my friends are? WHY???? This is just not the usual Monday blues that any person will have. I am like stuck in between emotions that nobody knows.

Rachel.

Hi it has been a long time since I posted in my dusty blog. So here i am doing it. As per normal boring day and more boring stuffs to say
HA this is my color so sweet not like me so not sweet. my schedule for this week not sure for the week days but for the weekends i got to go to my grandpa hse cos that day will be the day to celebrate his birthday and my cute little twin cousins birthday too.
Then i don't think anyone wants to book me to go out with him or her. Cos i cnnt confirm whether i going or not.
So just let it be that way thats all for the day. Next time i try to post some pics of me.
IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO SEE GET LOST.OK BB.

hi
just to say sth mr kris u rox and today i am really sori mabel sori sori sori. OMG i dun noe where the class key is now i dun even think we can enter the classroom.

HiE

I felt great today man. I grabbed and pulled this alien and i was absolutely rough this was the best man. I heard that the alien was scratched by me but i dunno why i felt so happy whenever i think of it. And that alien is CHUNG JUN KIAT.

my new idol

Koo Hara ROX. She is one of the member in Kara (a korean band).Her DOB is January 13, 1991

GREAT DAY

Today, i accompanied my aunt to the dental.After that we took bus service no. 804 . There was a lot of students from NorthView and they are not peaceful at all. It was very noisy.
After that we went to Swensens and had our 'tea break' i ordered a plate of baked mussels and cookie monster.
When i reached home i was so damn full. Have a nice day.